Saturday, February 22, 2014

Rising to the occasion

Over the years I've learned that when anything around you seemed overwhelming, 
you have 2 choices.
The escape, or the encounter.
Very quickly though, I learned the illusion. 
You really don’t have a choice.
Life will call on you, to rise to the occasion.
You don't back off into your hiding. You don’t escape.
I learned; to work my ass off, happily. I don't know how that happened.
I learned; that you don't complain, because you are yet to know what existence has for you on the other flip-side of reality. 
I learned; that it was never the answer of - I don't know;
It was the question, how can I come to know? 
It was never - it cannot be done; 
but a question of, how can it be possible?
You don't groan, moan, blame, neither beat yourself up in self-pity.
You don't have time for a freaking emotion. You just got to get going.
I learned; how to stay unshaken, frighten at times, 
but somehow finding my ground to stay unshaken.
I learned; that when it got tougher, you had to get sharper.
I learned; that details mattered. You don't miss the details. You make every effort to learn about the details.
You watch your breath as you keep vigil. Sleep became an enemy.
I learned; to be there for another and how that showed me what it meant to be a force and a strength, only to evoke the other to live their strength.
I learned to rise to the occasion because I knew what was at stake -
either that sense of freedom, somewhat sovereign, so real a freedom, yet cannot be put into words…
or I fall into an opportunity of betraying me, for a compromise.
I learned that life will always place you right where you are meant to be, so it may use all of you, for its highest of glory.
Thus, rising to the occasion, is really the occasion of you rising.  
Such is the demand of every moment.

Sunday, April 14, 2013


 *photo was taken in the morning in Cluj Napoka when I was in Romania.

Sitting by the curb, 
Hundreds walk pass, 
Maybe thousands,
Do they have a clue of their miracle?
The seed of infinite. 
That vastness.

Some stroll, 
some swiftly make their way through, 
Most are in the chase of something, 
When everything they seek - is really only a turn within,
I want to look into their eyes, 
And let them know the worldly lies, 
Could I jolt them into a space, their space? 
And perhaps break the news about their sacredness?
Wake them from the dream they seek.
And perhaps birth a silence of rest.

So they never come to miss their grandness,
So they never come to miss God in every moment,
So they never come to miss God moving through them.

An accidental fate

This moment. 
This "now" that we sit in.
A place to be. 
All it took to get us into this moment. 
All the encounter. 
Job terminations;
Relationships crossing our paths;s
Tears and smiles, 
screams of joy and anger; 
Praise, worship, success, rejection. 
Of crazy dances and star jumps,
Betrayals and lies;
At the end of this reflection,
what mattered was neither the highs nor lows that life showed us.
It showed us more.
It was never the experience.
It showed us a birth.
A birth of this silent presence.

You showed up.
You showed up regardless
Better still, to have stayed the course.

Now, in this silence of this moment, a rest of gratitude.
A conviction that love holds this biology together.
A truth that your arrival here and now makes up a larger picture.

This moment.
An accidental fate.

Friday, December 14, 2012

To dance with God.


To allow and trust. 
To love and rest. 
To sight that sacredness
   and stand guard by it.  
To know you are held. 
To live a moment this way.
To dance with God. 

Sunday, November 18, 2012

How do you identify takers?

Much of the work we do, involves people and their behaviors. Over the years, I have learned that the clarity and sight one must come to develop in identifying behavioral patterns, is utterly important. With belief systems forming our behavioral patterns, there is no right nor wrong for the person living that out. It is a matter of being conscious or unconscious of these patterns, as the process of self enquiry unfolds one to mere understanding of how they have come to form (behavioral patterns). Evolution only happens after understanding is established, on the level of being. 


So listed are 5 random indicators of a taker. There could be more. I have been guilty of some. And they are mere indicators of belief systems that we some how have come to identify them to be us - WHICH WE ARE NOT. The indicators of a taker, 

1. Maximizers.
They know how to capitalise on others giving. They usually will want to maximise anything, so they never lose out. Their primary question is - what's in it for me?

2. Transaction. 
Everything, including relationships - are usually reduced to a trade off or a transaction. They compare so they may profit so much for so little a price. They will claim a bargain they successfully transacted to be somewhat an attainment. The consumer mind is an indication of this psychology.

3. Commitment and Responsibility. 
They are usually fearful when the need to commit arises. They look for others to make decisions for them, so they have a way of avoiding responsibility. Much of their game play is to escape responsibility. They don't take responsibility of results. More than often, they look/ point/ decide for another to take responsibilty.

4. Existing. 
They use everything around them, to define and acknowledge their existence. They thrive on the need of acknowledgement. At times, they demand that significance. Respect is something they demand, yet hesitate to extend. Stature and external titles are usually their feel good factor. They want to be in control of things. Power and fame is usually their drive. Dismissing another so they can exist - pretty much a way of life. 

5. Fear.
To avoid the fear of the unknown, they reduce many of things to become practical and logical. They avoid the unknown for fear of not having control. Thus they are usually driven primarily by formulas and strategies. It would be the essence of their behavioral pattern. Their fear of the unknown is larger than them. 

Time we discard belief systems of the opportunist. 
So one can exist fearless of what's to come, yet humble. 
Love becomes the only reason for your ALL to extend.
Love becomes an ultimate reason to exist. 

Sunday, September 23, 2012

To escape or to encounter you?






The essence of Simirthi is about you sitting with you, and not escaping that meeting.
Too often in our daily life, everything is used to escape you meeting you.
Almost everything.

The inner rest never happens, because we're engaged with all of the world in survival.
We're usually identified by the functional roles we have with this world.
Indirectly or directly, they help us exist. The external establishes our presence. 
The ironic way of us identifying ourselves is through the lenses of this world. 
All of your existence is an external effort to exist. 
That is motivation. 

Whether it is to survive keeping or striving for a job, working with your colleauges or boss, making relationships work, projecting impressions so you're perceived/understood, succeeding to have more - financially, doing the charity so our riches are built in heaven and sins forgiven, building the abs so you may look good enough to be admired, complimented and perhaps accepted; majority of what we do stems from the base of surviving this world.

The question then - in the absence of all these, how is presence established? 
Is there presence? What happens?

Then the option of turning in presents itself. 
Have you existed without the point of reference of what's outside of you? 
Have you met you without the world pointing you out? 

To not escape you, and seek your mystery is the real thing. 
It is the only thing.

*photocredit: Gabriel Nazareno Barrag├ín
 photosource: facebook/com/simirthi

Saturday, August 04, 2012

J. Krishnamurthi nails this!

I maintain that Truth is a pathless land,
and you cannot approach it by any path whatsoever,
by any religion, by any sect.

That is my point of view, and
I adhere to that absolutely and unconditionally.

Truth, being limitless, unconditioned, unapproachable
by any path whatsoever, cannot be organised;

nor should any organisation be formed to lead or coerce people along any particular path.

If you first understand that, then you will see
how impossible it is to organize a belief.
A belief is purely an individual matter,
and you cannot and must not organize it.

If you do, it becomes dead, crystallized;
it becomes a creed, a sect, a religion,
to be imposed on others.

~ J. Krishnamurti

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Setting it right

I am to care for timmy, before any. I am guardian to his magic, his life force, his possibilities, his joy, his truth, his silence, his grandness, his light, his creation, his faith, his loyalty and his love, without a compromise. It is a responsibilty I undertake and not anyone else.

Your mystery never to be dismissed

they who ask of you to dismiss yourself to fit in, values what is convenient to them. they extend conformity because it is what they have submitted to. they value what the world thinks of them more than being a guardian of your mystery. #timmythinks

Friday, April 06, 2012

Spirituality, a mere label.


Someone had recently asked me about my thoughts on spirituality. And I told her I'd write her my thoughts rather than articulate it. 
So I thought I put it up here and share my thoughts here too. So here you go =)
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Spirituality is a label used to identify with the essence of the inner realm. 
Like the biology that evolves physically, so does the inner realm, energetically. 
The inner realm is vast in its nature. Infinite. 
The access into this realm begins with awareness. 
Every awareness is an opportunity to observe life and all its occurrence, consciously. 

Spirituality is the seeking of the seeker. Much of what we seek, eventually sheds light to understand the seeker. 
When one decides to seek for answers knowing that there is more to life than what meets the eye, the seeking begins. 
But such is a process that it takes you within. Hence the birth of the seeker, or sometimes known as the observer. 
It is not a set of belief structures. It is an encounter varying in experience from one individual to another. 
However, there are many who form beliefs out of this experiences. 

Spirituality, with the term used loosely, is pretty much living with a conscience of balance, and that balance is about being at peace with the moment. The energetic realm of this affects the biology. It either puts you (the spirit) in a state of restlessness or one that is rested. 
It gives birth to clarity and intelligence.  

Thursday, March 01, 2012

He Encountered

Nothing that he had sought outside of him, provoked the depth of joy that the heart was capable of celebrating.
The heart celebrated everything for the price of nothing.
The world outside celebrated nothing really, for the price of everything.
He looked within.

He encountered God when that which is within, provoked life.
He encountered God when the whole of him gave, did, loved, created, played, smiled and extended.

In moments of living out the all of him, he stumbled the divine.
He came to know God not by name, but by the vastness of it's presence.
He came to know God not by boundaries, but in the transcendence of boundaries.
He encountered God through the infinite unknown.
His prayer was not the articulation of words.
It was the intent and gratitude that immerse with every breath.

Every time he extended the more of him, he encountered the more.
Courage came, then freedom.
Freedom was responsibility.
It was growth.

Encountering did one thing.
It allowed possibilities to unfold through him. He encountered inspite the unknown - without limits.
With every encounter, he met the moment. With every moment, he saw the infinite.
In the infinite, he dissolved.
Duality found it's death.
He became the embodiment of love.
Love became what he poured, not what he seeked.
That which he poured became his participation with the vastness of the whole.

He encountered God through the very breath of life.
Not through beliefs.
The former, unconditional an experience.
The latter, conditioning to experience.

 He encountered.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

I can do without it.

The world is nothing but collective consciousness trying to establish an identity for its own existence. It wants to be present in the presence of something. I can do without that identity. #timmythinks

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Stillness captured

A beauty seated in stillness. Ariel.

Friday, February 10, 2012

Sunlight in Paris

It was winter in Paris, but this was the only morning that sunlight took on the skies. It was shot at the Louvre.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

The year of the Water Dragon

I think the year of the dragon shall be one of courage. Courage that you must possess to transcend and breakthrough all boundaries that cultivates limitation. Courage that will see you unfold, flower & shine. Courage exhibiting honor, intelligence, creation and love.

Monday, January 16, 2012

Meeting nature



Here is a moment where we meet nature at our finger tips. This was photographed in the Louvre, in Paris. 

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Mastery in flow


If you have seen his art, you know the essence of it boils down to mastery.

Sunday, January 08, 2012

In the light of the master.

This is one of my favorite shots I ever took in my life to date. The lady in this shot is Heather. As many of us sat in the presence of a master speaking that afternoon, I got a glimpse of this moment and thankfully I captured a little of its essence from my lense. The photo was titled by the master himself. #turiya2011

Sunday, January 01, 2012

Happy New Year.

For that which welcomes the coming year, is not the change of a calendar, nor the optimism that things will get better - but knowingness that potential shall flower. new realms will be yours. for you who have participated in my year, and allowed me to participate in yours - I will forever be grateful. It truly has been an awesome year.

I pray you immerse in the coming year and allow the joyous of life to manifest through you. Love to all.

This shot was taken when we celebrated the new year at Big Ben's in London. There were over 200,000 people in central London who came to catch the amazing fireworks show. It was beautiful, but it would probably be my last time going into the mass crowd and waiting for so long to catch a glimpse of the 10 minute show. Worth it nonetheless.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Lessons by the beach

To live out your heart this lifetime and all the lifetimes to come, is the only way to live. Such is a way of life, that requires you to live beyond the collective. As I sat with my guru by the beach during retreat, I caught a glimpse of another, possibly in reflection of his discovery. #turiya2011

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Light & love.

She sat there and I saw the falling light. It was a shot in Sze Ya Temple, the oldest Taoist Temple in Kuala Lumpur, which was built by one of the founders of Kuala Lumpur, Kapitan Yap Ah Loy in 1864. This temple is located at Jalan HS Lee adjacent to Kuala Lumpur Chinatown or Petaling Street area and Central Market.

Monday, October 31, 2011

As of today, I'm changing this blog to host my photography and how I randomly capture what I come to see with life. For my random thoughts - it's all hosted on http://timmythinks.com I'll be travelling Europe come Dec 2011 - Jan 2012. So I'll be putting up some photos here. =)

Thursday, October 06, 2011

Steve Jobs, thank you...

for he who extends his work in contribution to humanity, has extended himself. he that extends himself, is love in action. then, blessed is the world that shares his life and all of his creation that transforms reality - for we now celebrate him, only to realize we celebrate love, in the very essence of it. love that extends itself, creates & transforms. it never dies, because its nature transcends time & space. Steve Jobs, was merely love having another name that shall continue to evolve our reality at large. RIP kind sir. *screenshot of Apple's official website, (www.apple.com) on the day of his passing.

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Happy Independence Day, Malaysia.

Independence day must be a reminder that we ought to perfect the path of every individual coming to their independence. For that to happen personal responsibility becomes the base for freedom to flower. When the collective comes together as independent individuals, then a nation of great consciousness is born. The essence of independence is personal power regained. The blame game becomes obsolete a nature.

Happy Independence Day, Malaysia.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

making a stand for yourself & looking after your interest

don't mistake making a stand for yourself & looking after your interest to be the same thing.

the former can still build relationships. the latter destroys. the former acknowledges the other before self. the latter acknowledges only the self. the former extends space, the latter collapses it. the former in acknowledging self, restores personal power of another. the latter, insist on being acknowledged to be in power. the former stands centered, and sees the big picture of abundance. the latter seemingly stands centered, misses the big picture and finds the scarcity of the moment.

the former, usually a creator, the latter an opportunist.
the former lives in love, the latter in survival.
the former, in his evolution evolves the circle around him too. the latter evolves to be better than the circle around him.

both however are patterns.

my observation.

Saturday, July 09, 2011

To begin with me

I'm finding a need to share this at this time where people roam the streets for a cause, here in Malaysia. To begin with the self, is where it all begins. It is where the biggest reform one can ever begin. The most courageous. Not the streets, not with the government, not with systems. Physical reality will shift ONLY when many recognize personal responsibility and reform from within. It is the basic understanding of creation, we have missed. It is alot easier facing what is outside of us for change, than to come within, face the self and change the within. The truth the within unfolds reforms the heart & spirit. The outside reforms minds & perception. Go to work on the self, is the base of what Marianne Williamson writes. My favorite piece.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

-- from A Return to Love, by Marianne Williamson.

Tuesday, June 07, 2011

my priority

The more I encounter life, the more I am realizing who, why & what matters. For that which matters shall have the best of me. No compromise, for this is a call to live in priority this lifetime.

Thursday, June 02, 2011

my love

my love does not thread on feeling. it is not a trade. it is not an exchange that settles with a tit for tat. it is truth. it is an extension of my core to you. it is far larger than what my name could ever hold, transcending any measure and comparison.

it is my simple gift when you are in my space.

Monday, May 30, 2011

Tonality...

The definition and depth of a word/phrase communicated is found largely in the tonality articulated.

Tuesday, May 03, 2011

Celebrating Revenge?

I think the death of Osama has become the celebration for many who have kept a level of vengeance within. In the celebration of his death, I am guessing we're celebrating revenge. Subtly, the celebration is a propagation of revenge. How can humanity evolve as a whole when we take pleasure in living out our hurt? The man died, because someone put a bullet into his head, as he did with many others. Regardless what he did, his death was murder too. And the masses celebrate that? Do you see the joy that is coming out from some of them who came to know this news?

The subliminal our children may pick up is that it's alright to lash out revenge, and if it comes through, celebrate. Think about it?

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